Wednesday, June 11, 2008



The pictures might suck but a 2" piece just fucking snapped
Other pic is the new 4wheeler.

I guess running bad at poker and life means I run bad at fishing. We make the 30 minute drive to deep Anchor Bay when the trolling motor is bouncing like crazy, we lost a bar the prevents it from moving. We drive all the way back looking for it (very expensive), this is all on land btw, we decide to head back and just eat the loss when all of a sudden the fucking motor flat out falls off the back of the boat, luckily a safety strap is the only thing saving it from hitting the pavement. We load it in the boat and head back home. We decide to go fishing anyways with just the big motor (uses more gas than the trolling motor).

First muskie cast of the year results in the new crazy expensive cajun line snapping and I lose a $35 lure and have a birds nest of line wrapped up in my Shimano Calcuta reel (was $300 when I bought it). Baitcasting rods are a little difficult and take some getting used to so my dad starts ragging on me and the same thing happens to him and he loses a lure that is pretty much priceless as they don't make them anymore.

6 Hours of Musky trolling and no fish
-2 lures lost
- a motor bracket
-thankfully the $2,000 trolling motor is ok
-I look puerto rican I'm so tan from the sun today

I laugh when bass fisherman cry over losing a Rapala ($5-6) try losing $35 lures. BTW I've been pining over that lure and itching to cast it and the first cock sucking cast I lose it. I'm planning about a $500 order from muskieinnovations.com (these lures are plastic and generally only last for one to three fish anyways).

Running bad at poker and life. House will wait until January once tax season is over. Thankfully I will write a massive check to the government to help illegal immigrants, this fucking mess of a war, and that stupid nigger Kwame afford luxury SUV's.

I wouldn't want to write a $1 check much less what I will have to in Jan.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Bose must just love me

I threw my top of the line headphones yet again and need to shoot up to the store to buy a new pair (my 4th). It's pretty sick to think that I have spent almost $1,000 on headphones. The final straw was my poor play of top two vs the nut straight on the flop. Now I must regain control of my emotions, get happy and relax. I have made it a point that after I tilt I don't talk to anyone for at least 30 minutes because I'm mad. Every month I have one day where things just go completely wrong for me between running bad and then I make it worse by playing bad. Although, I somehow only lost 3 buy ins today. The sheer volume I play makes up for these days but it still pisses me off.

I was considering taking the boat and going fishing but they have been calling for rain all day and it smells and looks like it will pour any second so I said fuck it and played some poker. Of course the rain still hasn't came so it looks like I picked the wrong option. Although fishing has been going very poorly for me since ice out. After ice out I usually don't fish much until Musky season opens (first Saturday in June). I want to get good at fishing the rivers but it has gone very very rough so far with boat control being the number one problem with the current. A simple solution would be to go out with my cousin who is a very good Walleye fisherman and has fished the rivers for 25 years. I'm thick headed though and try to do everything on my own which is stressful. My confidence going into Musky season is at an all time low. My goal is still to boat 50 Muskies this season. By boat I mean when I fish with my Dad, gf, or by myself I want a total of 50 Muskies to be caught be anyone I'm with including myself by the end of the season. This is a huge goal of mine. Big time Muskie fisherman might boat 100-150 a year fishing more rods and a much bigger boat and have access of the whole lake at any time.

I also want to catch the 30lb+ monster that has avoided me my whole life. Catching a Muskie this size is not uncommon in Lake St. Clair. Muskies as large as 43lbs have been caught in recent years. About 10 years ago just as it started to pour on us my rod took off like a bat out of hell. I clearly felt the fish on the rod and within about 3 minutes of fighting it get off. I casted and threw my lure in the area for 30 more minutes without getting it or anything else. In my eyes I had a 30 some pound fish on for a few minutes.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Who me? I'm a chemical biologist

HOUSE TALK INCLUDED: A GOOD BLOG ENTRY IMO

A basic conversation with someone usually ends up turning to what that persons occupation is. I have told people from all over different jobs, some serious and some as obscure as my mind could imagine. Sometimes I tell people what I do and sometimes I say I fish Lake St. Clair for Atlantic Salmon (which don't exist), sometimes I say I'm a Supervisor of mentally retarded people (retarded people meaning horrible players). I recently busted out the I'm a chemical biologist. These days I just tell people what I really do and most say wow I didn't know people could do that for a living, what's the most you won in a day, what's the most you ever lost in a day. I typically dislike answering these questions. I find them rude.

Today I went to the Dentist and sadly have a new lady clean my teeth, shes young probably under 25 so she asked what I do for a living. I looked like shit (3 hours of sleep last night). Make a long story short I was hit with the whats the most you made in a day question. I often say quite a bit or something without getting into numbers. She says like $500, I respond with no a lot more, then I get the whats the most you lost in a day, I simply responded with I've made enough in a day to feel like I can walk on water and lost enough in a day to make me want to jump off a bridge into the water. People generally understand at that point that I don't play penny stakes like some friend of theres. Shes a nice young girl and all but sometimes questions piss me off.

How could I ever forget the most popular question: Are you on TV? Sometimes I just politely say no I play different games, sometimes I assume these people can think and tell them the differences between cash games and tournaments. Rewind to two weeks ago I go to the bank with a modest $3,000 check to deposit, the check says a financial company in Henderson, NV. The teller asks if this is my payroll check and I said no, she asked if it's investment money and I said no, she then asks what this check is from and I said I play online poker for a living. WOW did this ever amaze about 4 tellers, customers were being ignored while poker talk ensued.

On a final poker note I should state I traded in huge swings for more mentally manageable stakes and games and good and steady profit.

Now onto buying a house:

Turns out my gf and I are going to see what we can do to buy a house this Summer. We both kinda feel now is a good time mentally, financially, etc. I tossed and turned for 4 hours last night with my mind racing about house prices, down payments, first time buyer incentives, etc. My mind literally was running a marathon. Were gonna kinda see what we can get approved for without going to get approved if that makes any sense. She has a friend of a friend thats a real estate agent and I have a few contacts also. At times I feel like a financial failure because despite making good income my income is often considered horrible because it's "gambling". People don't want to loan money to a "gambler" for a house, car or whatever else one would finance. It's like my money isn't green to these people. At times I feel like people think I robbed some girl scouts that were selling cookies the way they look at me and my income. My last lease (current one the Commander) I was planning on putting down like $2,500 and having monthly payments and despite earing good enough money the guy was like you need someone to co-sign. I was simply shocked, pissed off I went to the bank, returned 20 minutes later and paid the whole fucking lease in cash. Of course I could have wrote a check but green paper looks better than a white check IMO.

Seeing as how fucked up the U.S. is I am concerned about that fucking idiot Obama making online poker illegal. What would I do if God forbid this happened? I have been thinking about this because it's important to have a back up plan. I guess I would go back to school (finish my Senior year of college) and try to get a job where my Dad works except higher up because I have school. I don't want to do this by any means but I know it's there for me if I should need it. My Dad loves me to death but it's kinda like in the show ax men or deadliest catch how it would go IMO. My father is very well respected in his trade and my Grandfather was also so I would of course feel the pressure to keep up the family name. Aside from heights and bees the only fear I have in life is not being successful. It might seem silly but I always strive for more. If I couldn't gain the respect of my fathers peers I would be heartbroken and disappointed in myself. Again, this is just an idea of a back up plan. I'm sure I would do well though because I work hard.

Moving to Canada would also be another option and continue playing poker. Probably just move like 15 minutes away from the border in either Sarnia or Windsor.

I hope I don't have to do or change anything.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

We have been looking at houses and trying to decide where to move to when the time is right (by this time next year at the latest). She works in Taylor, I live in Clinton Twp, she lives in Livonia so it's difficult to find something in the middle because in the middle means Redford, Inkster, Hamtramack, Oak Park, and other similar areas.

For as long back as I can remember I have been vocal about saying I want to live in Grosse Pointe. To me living in Grosse Pointe means success. To be 24 and living in a nice home in Grosse Pointe is a great accomplishment. Before I did some real estate research I wouldn't have thought it was possible to afford to live there. With the horrible Michigan economy there are some good deals everywhere on homes.

I found an awesome 3 bedroom, new air, furnance, floors, roof, 1800 square feet, 2 story, home in Grosse Pointe Park (by the looks of the house it was around Belfore, Maryland, Berkshire). I put myself, fishing, and what I want before her needs (her drive to Taylor). She needs to understand I don't want to live in Dearborn or Dearborn Heights or any other shit town.
To make a long story short the house I seen (although multiple good deals the above home) was appraised at $360,000 two years ago and is selling for FAR LESS. Basically in 10-12 years this home will be worth well over $425,000 and the real estate market will be bouncing back. The good news for us is we can wait a little while because I don't think the real estate market will be that much different in Jan or Feb of 2009.

We bought a new 4 wheeler that is a beast, 4x4, with a snow plow, awesome suspension and a much bigger engine that are current one (that we still have). It looks like the Jacuzzi will be here Saturday which I'm excited to soak in.

I can clearly understand the stress involved in house shopping. We got into a big argument about it (all made up now), and the sick part is we didn't really even accomplish anything so the stress of looking at houses will continue for at least 6 more months. And people wonder why I smoke like a chimney.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

I'm running horrible right now and am getting quite bummed. I seem to start off every session -2 buyins within about 15 minutes and win some back and end down a few buyins. I actually had to reload my account which was a complete pain in the ass. I'm not bust and have never went bust. I don't keep nearly as much money online as some players do.

Celeb. death pool is going awesome for me. Prince Phillip was hospitalized with a chest infection. Rapper Lil Wayne looks like a zombie from blow and syrup. Charleston Heston died recently. I also have former President Bill Clinton, actor Owen Wilson, Queen Elizabeth, and TV outdoor show guy Bear Gryles (sp). This is one hell of a draft by me. All of these people have a great chance of dying.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Defending his ground

I'm contemplating ending my blog due to recent security threats. I'm in the process of changing my FTP player ID due to attempts to hack my account. Over 1,000 attempts to break my password failed. I personally receive satisfaction from writing in my blog. I post pictures that are important, funny, etc. I also use this blog as a form of a journal which will be entertaining to look back on in 25 years. 12,158 people read me calling out the world in my last update. I may have made a stupid decision outing people but I found it necessary at the time. I'm unsure if the security threat and my blog are correlated at all. I like people that I used to hang with watch me back up my words and dreams. I'm looking forward to a couple days off from poker while I change account information. I vow to dominate the games upon my return. I vow to crush the games, remain in emotional control, and to climb the ladder higher towards my ultimate goal. This I promise you. I have never broke a promise in my life. I don't promise anything I can't do and dominating a poker game is something I can, have, and will do continue to do. I promise to play my best and log more hours. This I vow to the world.

In my personal life I feel it's important to share an update. My relationship continues to be fantastic. We celebrated our 6 month anniversary on March 5th. I said this a few months ago and still believe it to be true, this is the girl I will spend the rest of my life with. Earlier today I was reading through some old posts I made on this blog about girls I was dating, fucking, etc. It's amazing how I never cared for any of them. I guess I treated them poorly. I have never been in love before, never told a girl I love her. I'm in uncharted waters right now and I'm enjoying the experience. Were planning on buying a house together soon but not too soon. I would say beginning of next year but who knows. She loves me for me which I have never felt before. She wants to spend every minute with me (in a good way) and vice versa. I've never been ashamed of myself but I'm a different person these days, in a maturing type of way.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Airing them the fuck out

If you think I suck at poker and talk shit while playing 6max and want to play hu don't back out. My simple request is that easy to follow. Today 3 people backed out of my challenge after they issued it. I offered to play 6 tables hu and higher stakes or the same stakes as the ring game we were in. They all backed out after talking shit. It's like in real life the toughest people are the ones you have never seen throw a punch. They run away from any conflict with their tail tucked up their ass. They have no fucking guts but yet always say how tough they are. I don't fucking hang out with those pussies in real life and I talk shit to them at the poker table and watch them make excuse after fucking excuse. I'm like the fucking Game cause I'm gonna start airing the fucking shit out of some poker players. You can call me the Drama King. I just truly don't give a fuck if it tarnishes my image or not anymore.

Players that are pussies and scared to play me:
Awful Luck
Goofnuts
Goddess (something or another)