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The pictures above are of me in a suit before I went to court this past Wednesday. In case you wonder what I look like in a suit. The third picture I took while watching players flip for $3,000 every hand. Notice player Dustin Dirksen on the left sitting with amost $500,000.

I havent been doing a whole lot lately. Mostly just playing online poker. I played all the big tournaments today with little success. I have been running really good in cash games which is a nice change. I feel I'm playing good and making good reads and folds against my opponents.

I quit drinking pop today. I need to shed some lbs and this is the first place to start. I need to cut out other stuff but pop is a big issue with me, its always been.

I would also like to mention this website pokerplayersalliance.org sorry I don't know how to do the link despite multiple attempts. I would never ask a non poker player to donate money to a cause. If you happen to feel that the Government has no business to interfere with online gaming then I would kindly ask you to become a basic member by signing their petition. If you happen to agree that it should be banned then please save that opinion for yourself. Many people like myself make a nice income and are able to better ourselves with higher education and by many other ways. It will only take a minute or two of your time to sign this if you want to. I thank you in advance. The goal is 1 million signatures. 1 million voices can't be ignored. I myself have donated money and will continue to. The U.S. Governments recent actions have turned a Republican to vote for any Democrat (leave out Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton). By the way Mr. Head Black Guy Jesse Jackson knocked up his white mistress.

I guess lately I have kinda been in a funk. I have alot of demons in my life that have been around for way too long. I don't feel I'm ready to be around people drinking yet and plan to avoid bars forever. I don't want to drink and I don't want to be around it. At some point if you plan to be successful both financially and more importantly personally I feel you need to quit the childish behavior. I'm very guilty of this myself. I realized while in jail I'm sick of using drugs and drinking alcohol.

2AM THOUGHTS

Court went well for me on Wednesday. My fantastic lawyer had one charge dropped and plead no contest for another which resulted in 1 year of advisement. My judge was a very old guy probably close to 80. My lawyer was really excited to have him and said he takes it very easy on people. I have not had a sip of alcohol since Superbowl Sunday. I plan to quit everything as i have stated before. Partying is interfering with my overall goal to become successful both personally and financially.

I dropped COM1010 (oral speech) due to an overloaded schedule. I signed up for a statistics class and COM3300 (written communication) for this summer. The only reason I'm updating this blog is because the site I do my Math on is down for the weekend. By dropping speech I will have much more time to focus on an already difficult school schedule.

I went to the Dermatologist today for a checkup. He said for more improvement I should consider using Accutane. I have often heard of all the negatives associated with this medicine. I would have to use it for 5 months where I stand a 50% chance of never having acne again. I have heard Accutane causes rage issues, depression, and sometimes suicide. I would never kill myself but it's quite clear I have anger problems at times. I think most of my anger is associated with drinking and since I don't drink shouldnt be much of an issue. I plan to go on Accutane and try it out. If it seems wrong for me I will go back to what I have been using.

Poker has had its ups and downs as of late. I'm currently winning back the 10 buyins I dropped last week and earlier this week. I should not have been playing as I was swamped with school and had court on my mind so I accept some blame. The others was due to sick bad beats and minor tilt. I would get my money in as a 4-1 favorite and lose 8 out of 10 times. I laugh when people say "teach me how to play". If I hate you as a person I will teach you how to play so I can increase your daily stress by 1000%. I make it seem bad but in reality I'm thankful and feel blessed to be able to excell in a game filled with 90%+ losing players. I no longer wake up early and go to a job I hate (unlike most people). I get to work in whatever I feel like wearing (usually pajama pants and a hooded sweatshirt). I get to work whenever I feel like it. If I don't feel like working I simply don't. I'm my own boss which I enjoy because I work good by myself. It's sometimes easy to get distracted and not want to work but then I think of the money I'm missing out on. I will be very curious to see if I can make $70,000 this year playing.

Yes, it's true I went on a date tonight (Friday). My calculus of econ. class is quite stacked with hot girls. I was wearing my suit from court on Wed. at school (no time to change) and I think it made some panties moist (sorry I'm just being honest). Anyways we received our tests back and Melonie says how did you do? I said 96%, you? Shes not the best at econ. and got a 72%. So anyways, were walking out of State Hall and shes like we should study sometime and I said something along the lines of we should go out sometime and then maybe I will study with you. She says it sounds so romantic (sarcastically). Anyways, we went out tonight and had a nice time and I for sure made studying econ. romantic. I'm sure everyone wants to know what happened, don't you? You wonder if I slept with her, I can tell what your thinking. You wonder if I gave her a flying camel or a Peral necklace? You might ask if a bucking bronco occured? Did she give up the butt? Did I fuck her in a car? a Dennys bathroom?, maybe on a golf course where I myself lost my virginity? Aside from making out nothing occured. I'm glad of this, you see when you fuck me the first night in some weird place I generally consider you a skank and thank you for the fuck, and say goodbye. Now I stongly dislike girls that protect their pussy like it's a bar of gold and don't putout. I'm not looking for the skanks, hoodrats, club rats, girls that fuck black guys, etc. It was a nice night out.

To avoid Tilt

I requested my roommates make a sign saying Don't Tilt. Tilt for the uninformed is when you get frustrated while playing poker due to bad beats and start playing really stupid costing yourself usually alot of money. Tilt can however make the transition into life away from the tables. When your dog starts barking you could say "nice tilt." Another example would be pouring a drink and some spills a common response would be nice tilt.

It's clear I have some anger issues. Generally speaking I would consider myself a nice person that is very outgoing. The problem is when I get upset I get really upset. I would estimate tilt costs me $1,000 a month. I got tilted when some idiot called with 66 against my AK. He is a 55-45 favorite by the fact that someone would call a $600 allin with 66 astonishes even me. I then shoved the next hand on a different table with AQs not the best move and ran into some shortstack with $100 at a $600 buyin table who had KK. He obviously had the best hand but I was steaming after the AK vs. 66 hand.

I have a tough Economics exam Monday afternoon which I need to study for. I also have Math thats due and a speech in like a week. Taking 5 classes might be too much even though I don't technically have a job although I spend job like hours online playing poker to support myself.

It's time for a change

I promised myself when I was in county jail on Sunday ass naked lifting my nut sack and peeling back the skin on my dick that I would never come back to jail. I got blackout drunk and got into a fight which I guess I won by a drastic margin. I go to court on the 21st and really have nothing else to say about the matter. I was arrested for assult and battery and will hopefully get my case thrown out or at worst a year of advisement and probably alcohol treatment. I'm done drinking and using any drugs. Exclude heroin and crystal meth and I have done everything there is to do. It's time to get some type of game plan into place. I'm quitting everything cold turkey but for the time being plan to enjoy smoking smokes. Suck my dick I know they cause cancer. I don't drink daily just on the weekends usually. I blew a .30 at the police station which is crazy high. I have a fantastic lawyer and the best judge I could possibly have. I will not mention my judges name but through family there is a solid connection and I'm sure this will help, shhhhhh.

Missing school on Monday fucked me over big time. I have spent this week studying my ass of and getting worse grades than I anticipated. My speech got an 81%. My Econ quiz I got an 80%. I probably got a 60% on the Wed. econ quiz. I sweet talked my speech teacher into letting me make up the quiz I missed Monday. I don't think I did well at all. I have my MGMT 5540 exam tommorow morning which I am nervous about. Next Monday I have my Econ. midterm which will be really fun.

I have actually played a few hours of poker this week on Absolute Poker. My game has been the best it has ever been. I always seem to make the right play. I plan to play a ton more hours now (hopefully 30 a week). The games on AP are a little scarce but I find very beatable. I have tightened up a little bit in some areas I feel I get into trouble. I have plugged some major leaks in my game. I plan to spend more time updating this blog than my previous one. This is something that I enjoy doing and makes me happy, usually. My goal is still to TP/MM which means turn pro/make millions. I need to go hit the books for my MGMT 5540 exam tommorow.